Grace, grace, terrible grace

My initial thoughts after reading the first chapter of Give Them Grace: Dazzling Your Kids with the Love of Jesus by Elyse Fitzpatrick and Jessica Thompson. I am in TERRIBLE need of grace every. Single. Day. Grace is a terrible thing. Grace drives me to silence before God's throne when I just want to lead … Continue reading Grace, grace, terrible grace

down to the “nitty-guilty”

If I am being honest, there are quite a few things I feel guilty about on a daily basis. And I'm beginning to realize that this guilt is at the root of some of my anxiety and stress that holds me back from my goals. I feel guilty about...

how it really goes

But of course, this is what REALLY happens. I forgot to plug in my phone before climbing into bed last night so it died, not waking me up at 5:15 this morning. My baby managed to not wake me up either, because BOTH of us managed to somehow sleep in until 11:00. 

the trap of self-pity, the pressure of catching up, & the danger of making excuses

No time to read? Then listen! Click here to listen to the audio version of this post.  Yes, that title is a.... what is that word they use these days.... doozy? Wow, I just looked that word up in the dictionary, and I actually spelled it right! I believe this is the first time I've … Continue reading the trap of self-pity, the pressure of catching up, & the danger of making excuses

The Year of Integrity

  My "bridge book" between 2015 and 2016 was Oola. That's right, pronounced just the way it's spelled: OOLA. The subtitle read, "Find balance in an unbalanced world."  The subtext read "The 7 areas you need to balance and grow to live the life of your dreams." I have no intention of doing a book review or summary here, but I will … Continue reading The Year of Integrity

2014 in 365 words

An unbearably rough start. An incredible 26-mile victory. Facing pain and beginning a journey of letting go. Creating new memories through celebrating the Lunar New Year the local way. An involuntary sabbath. Finding stability through maintaining physical strength. 8 weeks of counseling that changed my life. Rediscovering independence through shedding unhealthy layers of dependence. Rowing … Continue reading 2014 in 365 words


Comparison is toxic. It brings about jealousy, which is like poison penetrating your bones. Once something has penetrated your bones, it affects your movement; and the way you move suddenly becomes indicative of the toxin that has permeated the system. It also keeps you from doing certain things without great anger or pain, such as … Continue reading Toxins


She stepped back, afraid. Afraid of herself. Things she was once so confident in she now doubted. It was like she could no longer read these feelings that she had. She didn't trust them. She didn't trust herself.  She hated the barricade this produced. the feeling of being cut off that came as a result. … Continue reading re-growth


Part I Moments. Moments missed, moments passed, moments seized All of them shape who we are at this very moment A moment of hurt A moment of triumph A moment of shame A moment of love The moments we want to last forever never do And the movements we wish would pass never do A … Continue reading Moments


It had been days now since the drug had been removed. All of the emptiness and dissatisfaction she had once been hiding and even ignoring was now revealed for what it was. The poison had deeply penetrated her soul. She writhed in pain almost every night, and it was all she could do to not … Continue reading poison