Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
-The Apostle Paul
I puked today. I know, not the most appetizing opening sentence, but an honest one nevertheless. I wasn’t encountering any red lights when I asked Dr. Google if I could run with a sinus infection. So I went biking on Saturday and tried playing ultimate frisbee tonight, but ultimate was a fail. I ended up walking off the field in a coughing fit and actually puked up some of my dinner I was coughing so hard.
It was disappointing, since I really wanted to play. It was also disappointing because I’ve already gone a couple weeks without playing, and I’m missing the stimulation that the gives me. The community, the competition, the sport, the physical demand – all of these things have characterized my Monday nights, and now I miss it. (My friends and I out here do frisbee every Monday night.)
Being sick does this to you. It keeps you from doing this you love. It saps you of all energy. It retards bodily operation. IT OWNS YOU! It sucks! And the whole time you’re just waiting to get better, waiting for your energy to be restored, waiting for the antibiotics to kick in so you can be magically healed. And the worst part is that you don’t know when that will happen.
There’s nothing super exciting about being sick at all.
However, there MIGHT be something potentially exciting about one-way tickets. There’s the uncertainty of the return, which is not even guaranteed. There’s the potential of a new adventure, an unexpected route. And it can also be an all-around stressful ordeal. Stress, in its own right, is a form of excitement! The situation will stimulate something for sure.
Whether or not you’re picking on this parallel I may be failing to draw, there is something stimulating about a negative situation. (Negativity here is being defined by what we as humans perceive to be harmful to our own personal goals.) And because we are human, we desperately need this stimulation, because it drives us to action. It forces us to examine ourselves and make changes. It brings us face-to-face to paradigms that may or not need to be shifted. And it moves us forward.
And forward is the best place any of us can go. Whether you’re sick or only bought a one-way ticket. (In my case, it’s both.)